so ok this is third installment of my previous fuck valentine's note, which i didnt figure that there would need to be a second let alone a third piece. it is starting to remind me of a really bad B movie that had too many sequels, but now instead of being sad about it, i am actually starting to find it humorous because i will state for the record that i have not contacted my ex since she told me to fuck myself for trying to defend what i thought was a friendship that her and i were going to have to her husband, which i would also like to say he contacted me first and i was just being polite in responding.

now here is where it is getting funny. i have been writing about this shit as a means to deal with it because its not healthy to still love someone who is being cruel to you via the mighty interweb, but i am a fool and i still love my ex. she truly was a great person when her and i were together, despite her not seeing what was wrong with lying to me. but right now i believe that my refusal to respond to her is eating at her because she is not getting a reaction out of me, directly. so apparently she has been reading what i have been writing and this is the third installment:

"damn ur so complicated!!! josh i never thought i was going to write u again after all and after i told u not to write me either( n u know why rite? cause u tried or actually did"talk " to jeff but anyways thanks cause u didnt write me again .. but for some reason i feel the need of explain it to u since it is too hard to believe that my friend had the stupid idea of sent u a blanck message... well just so u know no josh i was not in the bathroom and no we were not fighting over the mousse ,she saw me going through ur old messages and she ask me who u were so i told her the story, .. anyways i dont know in what moment she did what we both know she did but i found out cuz she forgot to delet it from my sent messages... now am i upset because of that?? ummm not really is not like ur going to die or that will affect u rite but if it did im going to say it one more time : SORRY , why am i saying all this?? cause is kinda weird when u read that other people is talking about u ... YES joshua a read ur blog .. are u going to kill me for being curious?? .your always overthinking stuff , shit happens come on is it really too hard to believe? im not crazy and im not trying to fuck with ur head i told u i wasnt going to write u but whatever .

take care "

so i suppose once again i am the crazy asshole because i have had a hard time moving on because its so much easier to jump into a relationship with someone and then get married a few months later. not to discredit her marriage with her husband or anyone else that does it, i just dont believe that you really know someone after that short of a period of time, but hey, i have been wrong before. but i am wrong for defending what i thought was a friendship to someone that truly didnt need to meddle in the matter but that is done, but then to get a fuck you from the so-called friend for my defensive manner was like a supersized mind fuck. i feel like the cubans(and rightfully so being cuban) when the bay of pigs and all that shit occurred when they were trying to revolt against castro's communistic hold over the country, with the promised help of then and currently deceased president JFK coupled with various organizations that use acronyms for names. as soon as the cubans were in position, JFK was kinda like yeah, i sorta might have over exaggerated the promised help so hey good luck..WTF???

if one is not trying to fuck with one's head, then why would one continually keeping writing to said one after no response has been received the first two times??
i guess indirectly she might be getting a rise out of me, but like i said, i now find this pathetic excuse for drama to be humorous and so i am going to keep it going as long she keeps bugging me. since i said i would not make contact, and i assume she is going to read this:

you have your peace, please leave me the fuck alone so i can try to find mine. i havent been as fortunate as you to find someone that loves me like you do. maybe that is because i cant seem to get over you, which i truthfully dont know why, but i cant. i hope to soon. we had good times, but now you are becoming the sole source of my anguish, so again i ask you, please leave me the fuck alone, so i can pick up the pieces of my broken heart that you stepped all over as you walked away. an eye for eye, you got your revenge, now let there be peace and silence"

hopefully we wont be stretching this out to a fourth part, but if we do, i hope you find some entertainment from my agony.